My days are still 7/7. Seven days at Starbucks around 7am. A few hours there and the rest of the day is gravy. Besides speaking to some Sbux buddies my days and nights are alone. Just checked out a woman's butt here at Sbux. Don't even care if it's noticed anymore and really don't give a shit about explaining FTD, awareness cards or anything else when issues occur. Almost got into a fight and the person stopped in the middle and said to me, "your handicapped" and left. Sometimes have happy hour $3 chicken wings at night, but have started swallowing hole bites or choking. I've a girlfriend I see weekly and we have short spectacular times together.
People have brought up Assisted Living. That will never happen. I'm a social guy who can't be around people. I've met dozens of FTD'ers. Have seen all variants and stages. Have visited FTD'er friends in assisted living and know many there. Nothing like being somewhere and not being able to hide from who you are. I'll pass.
Have been told I might qualify for a scholarship. Spoke to my ex-wife about me now making my funeral arrangements. Have decided on a Jewish burial and Yaffa told me I should qualify for scholarship funeral. That would be nice because if I spend my money now on funeral arrangements and run out of money, then I'll have to eat string beans, choke and be gone. Won't do assisted living or the streets. Has nothing to do with me being Jewish, living in Israel or having fought in the Israeli army. A few months ago I asked my daughter if she wanted daddy/daughter tattoos done. She had a small one on the back of her neck in Hebrew with one of my "quotes."She was very excited about daddy/daughter tattoos. I fought her bone and dog over that tattoo a couple of years ago. I've none on my body and would of never considered one 99.9% of my life. Spoke to Chelsea a few days before the AFTD conference and asked she decided on a tattoo for us. She told me we shouldn't have tattoos done. My son Myles is a religious Jew and in order to be buried in a Jewish cemetery, you need to be tattoo free. This is the least I can do for my son.
Life isn't easy, but no one gave me a happy pass at birth.