As much as I try and keep this blog upbeat, it is more important to keep honest to myself and the people that are reading it. I would love to write how much I have to look forward to, but right now there isn't much. I still haven't even figured out how I'm going to see my kids this winter break.
One good friend said to me the other day how I have no life, except everything that's wrapped up in my work in FTD world. Yes, I agreed with her. I also explained that my finances are being cut severely and where I want for absolutely nothing, I do absolutely nothing except get coffee from Starbucks because I can't afford to do anything. I also can't figure out what I have and what I can spend so I spend nothing except for basics. Much of this is choices as well. I cut back in many areas for the month so I could send my daughter a birthday present. We all have choices in life. I choose to stay in Manhattan where it's more expensive so I pay the price. It would've been nice if all the social services weren't cut around me, but that's life. I'm not sure how many more rises in expenses and cutbacks I can take. I'm hoping not to be forced out.
I've been filming more lately and I feel good about that. I hope one day "Howard's Brain" will be made and people will understand the ugly world of FTD.